|Monday, April 4th, 2011|
I forgot about this...
|Sunday, April 12th, 2009|
|Tuesday, January 27th, 2009|
|its cold outside
So I went to the gym then court now work...tonight dance then sleep.... I think I am going to hang out around the courthouse they had some fine looking lawyers up in justice court..holler
|Wednesday, January 21st, 2009|
Feel ok Current Mood: annoyed
|Sunday, January 18th, 2009|
I have to go to court on tuesday or "aggrasive driving" I don't know how to plead? Current Mood: confused
|Saturday, January 17th, 2009|
I feel like it is impossible to loose weight I am always on a fucking diet and I am so very sick of it. I miss being thin and feeling so light and having a bounce in my step I hate the fact that I actually battle in my head what to eat and being embarrassed to eat.
I know I should go sit in the steam room to probably rid my bloat, I know I need to cut out most salt from my diet I know I got to work harder.
|Friday, January 16th, 2009|
So I had to take Jenn to the airport this morning so I was not able to go to the gym but I still managed to pack my healthy lunch and gym bag so I can go right after work. I have a ton of energy now that I am putting the right stuff in my body and hitting up the gym but in all honesty my belly is still on super bloat status. I guess i have to ditch the frozen food and cook myself so I can take in less sodium :(
|Wednesday, January 14th, 2009|
|Sunday, November 30th, 2008|
It is safe to say that everything about my life is funny right down to my haterd towards random egos amoung our circle of friends. Some people will never learn. Current Mood: confused
|Monday, November 24th, 2008|
|what a monday
I Come to work drop my cottage cheese on the bran new carpet
My water spills inside my louie
My Lunch (bowl of hot soup) Falls on my lap
|Wednesday, November 19th, 2008|
|Half way thru the week
So I got a second Job at Marciano..Yes that skank store for the holiday Season. I hate the fact that I have to take this job yet at the same time I feel incredibly guilty for it. So many people need a job right now and I have two, I am truly blessed.
|Monday, November 17th, 2008|
|ok so is this wierd?
I like Mondays?! I think Mondays are good because it is a begging of a new week. I feel like Mondays allow us for a fresh start. Ok I am crazy.
|Saturday, November 15th, 2008|
|Wednesday, November 12th, 2008|
|End of story
I have come to the conclusion that I have no will power. If there are chocolate truffles around me you bet your butt I will devour them! If there is a man in my bed you better believe something will happen, and if there is a person I should not talk to I will in-fact contact them immediately I have a problem with holding in my emotions I guess, well I know I do. I am the type of person who cries over everything even though it is not a big deal. I guess I am full of passion and I want confrontation I want everything out in the open but I lack tack in the process of things. I have no idea what I am getting at so I probably should stop while I am ahead because I am sure I confused anyone who is reading this entry.
xo Current Mood: contemplative
|Tuesday, November 11th, 2008|
|Bright Bright Day
Although I feel a bit ill today I am keeping my positive attitude! I mean I am a smart pretty girl who needs to build her confidence back up. I used to be the queen of the scene for realz and well I do not want to reclaim that I do want to reclaim my healthy attiitude i had for myself at that time. I will get back on to p of my game and everything will go as planned.
Viva LA Gigi
|To early to tell
It may just be to eary to tel but I think today will be a half decent day. I am not going to let the fact that I i put on a bunch of weight tell me how my day will be. I feel good vibes out in the world..something good is brewing.
|Sunday, November 9th, 2008|
|this is not a test
I find it amazing that someone who called themselves one of your best-friends can treat you like a piece of trash. Yes this has happened to me and the only thing that shocks me is that he really must think I have feelings other then friend ship for him. He needs to get a clue that I am not interested in him other then friendship and if this is how he is going to treat a friend I do not want that anymore either.
On a sweeter note I hung out with the most amazing man last night who made me feel not only beautiful but full of worth..It was nice not being insecure for a moment. :)
|Friday, November 7th, 2008|
So tonight will be the first cold first friday mmm fun right? I hope it will be a good one, no drama no scary moments. I get my hair cut after work so I will look like a foxxy mama so look out boys. Oh and I am going to wear my Giani Bini one shoulder purple ruffel dress..Who wants to roll around in the hay with me? Ok I am being silly..Have a good day kids.
bigmamag Current Mood: amused
|Thursday, November 6th, 2008|
|I hate when I write these posts
But I feel so bloated and I can only blame my self for the countless candy and chocolate pieces that I have been indulging in for the past three weeks. I realize people don't like reading these post either but shit this is my journal not anyone elses. I try so hard to be "normal" but I am not I am extraordinary. I wish I can feel what I felt when I was 20 pounds thinner but I guess a year makes a difference, this just may be aging or it might be just my lack of will power but something has to change I hate having low self-esteem.